a wistful goodbye




even as the old year ebbs into sleep
and the new year dawns promisingly
i’m readying to say another goodbye
to our dear house

so many memories are moving gently around my heart…

waking up to mornings blushed in sunlight.
the house, across ours, i fictively called green gables
washed, wet and misted in rain

the patch of sky where i watched the stars blossom each evening.
birds swinging on cable wires.
the playful wind making love to our curtains.

our neighbor’s christmas trees
framed like a piece of nature’s art outside our window

taking little night walks
under the shadow of trees
and the soft glow of lampposts

the everyday gift of fresh flowers and ferns
and the sacred ritual of arranging them in jars  

the quiet.
the naked white floor.
many [measureless] moments of happiness and a few silent tears.
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the kind loving soul of this house. dearest house.

13 comments:

  1. I hope you are moving to a house which can be a beautiful new home for you. I think of the people who will live in your old house after you, how they will be gentled and blessed by the energy you leave behind in the floors, the walls, the memories of the light and shadow in the rooms.

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    1. sarah, thank you for the gift of your hope. it is truly needed.
      each time i pause between my work and thoughts, to relive moments spent in this house and offer my silent homage, my heart fills up with the sincere wish for the new residents to be loving towards this blessed house.

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    2. forgive me, i'm a little absorbed, i forgot to thank you for such kind thinking.
      your words will stay with me.

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  2. Firstly, these images are beyond beautiful !
    The soft colors, beautiful daylight and the peaceful atmosphere is something that I crave for everyday in my life, which I find in your photography.{ My current home is devoid of adequate daylight and there is scarcity of space and lot of noise from the street. }
    Sorry to learn that you will be moving. I have changed homes so many times { after I got married and hubby got transferred}...and each time I move into a new home, I get attached to it immensely...homes are the extension of our hearts..sometimes you know what even if there are lot of disadvantages in our current apartment, I do not want to change it because of my attachment..to the walls, colors, even the people...the security guard, the nearby marketplace...and above all, the window of my bedroom! and the tree nearby..these are not merely memories but feelings that I do not want to detach myself from.
    We have been moving like gypsies...hope to settle in the near future..from where I will refuse to move !
    take care,

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  3. Firstly, these images are beyond beautiful !
    The soft colors, beautiful daylight and the peaceful atmosphere is something that I crave for everyday in my life, which I find in your photography.{ My current home is devoid of adequate daylight and there is scarcity of space and lot of noise from the street. }
    Sorry to learn that you will be moving. I have changed homes so many times { after I got married and hubby got transferred}...and each time I move into a new home, I get attached to it immensely...homes are the extension of our hearts..sometimes you know what even if there are lot of disadvantages in our current apartment, I do not want to change it because of my attachment..to the walls, colors, even the people...the security guard, the nearby marketplace...and above all, the window of my bedroom! and the tree nearby..these are not merely memories but feelings that I do not want to detach myself from.
    We have been moving like gypsies...hope to settle in the near future..from where I will refuse to move !
    take care,

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    1. so true sanghamitra, our attachment to our homes go deeper than their sheltering. there's so much more it cocoons than just our being.
      i wish you the home of your dreams, before long.
      like you, i hope for permanence too; as we are preparing to move into our fourth house in a span of four years.
      thank you so much for all the lovely words you've sent my heart's way.

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  4. The Dear House will miss u as much ... and m sure u are turning to better... Your nuture and care will leave a beautiful gift of Lovely times to the new residents.. also the same will brighten the life of a new little place that has probably been waiting for ur caress to grow into a home..

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    1. dearest, thank you for thinking such warming thoughts.
      all the things you've said here melts my heart so, especially as it comes from someone who's visited us and is part of our home-love-affair. i hope to keep your faith.

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  5. It is always difficult to say goodbye to that which has helped sustain us. My very best wishes as you create new, cherished memories in your new home.

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    1. we are yet looking and hoping to find our new home.
      thank you for the wishes judith. i truly appreciated it.

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  6. It is indeed always sad to leave a home behind...
    Your photos and words will make for wonderful memories.
    Ronnie xo

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  7. These images are so so lovely.
    I know how difficult it is to leave
    a home that your heart has had
    the chance to bond with. I send
    you wonderful thoughts as you
    venture into the warmth of a new
    abode. :)

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let my thoughts come to you
when I am gone
like the afterglow of sunset
at the margin of starry silence
- rabindranath tagore -