Showing posts with label vasanta. Show all posts
Showing posts with label vasanta. Show all posts

these days

these days





we wake up in the morning to bird hymns
dulcet sunshine singing over hilltops
and a balmy wind softly stirring the world awake.

clouds are scribbled all over the sky
sometimes fleecy white wafting towards the distant blue
other times, painted gray and wistfully lingering
like a scene from my favorite movie, only yesterday.
we watch enthralled it's moving shadow gliding over hills.

during lunch, we tell stories. saanjh and i.
i narrate scenes from my own childhood
of gathering amrud (guava), mulberries and star gooseberries from a friend’s aangan (courtyard),
of borrowing a little blue cycle from the neighbourhood shop and riding a riot through the streets,
of helping a school teacher’s gardener (maali-kaka) in their beautiful garden.
in return, saanjh narrates her own sweet compositions
of a fairy loosing her star on a country road,
finding it and loosing it again
only to find it back finally when a helping cow fetches it for her.
(the specialness being, she’s never been told a fairy story. so it's truly self-woven).

post lunch, we stand by our bedroom window
with curtains and screen slid open, gazing at the afternoon outside
squirrels chasing each other, mynahs perched on khair branches,
a brown rabbit timidly hopping between rocks and foliage
some local boys plucking raw mangoes, a flock of pigeons dancing in the air
and often, pointing at imaginary animals.

come evening, we await and celebrate papa’s return from office
have dinner in our balcony, under the magic of stars and fairylights
while the fragrant song of mogras and a playful west wind plays on.

. . .

tuesday noontide
the thirty first
vaiśākha

this time, last year

this time, last year





i remember this time, last year
when the full moon of vaiśākha bloomed in the spring sky
and you were by our side.

sometimes i think how i’ve learnt to live in your absence
i think of death. and how it’s married to life.
i’ve felt how when it seeks kindly, submission can be unmiserable.
it sought you kindly. at the end of a beautiful life.
perhaps why, i haven't mourned you.
i don't miss you sadly. i just miss you.
i’ve come to know how death can be a different kind of friend from life.
whenever it may come into our lives, i ask for it to come like a friend,
whom i can embrace with peace and let nudge me close to life.
i pray for its kindness always, as i pray for life’s.

some other times i’m engulfed by death’s surrealness,
a thousand questions and its divine power.
how small and incapable we are in its wake.
my soul bows to it and once again asks for its kindness.

.

in the evening, saanjh and i burnt incense
and offered our obeisance to buddha
i told her of his birth, and how his reverence for peace
makes him mine and her nana’s spirit god.
later, as we stood admiring the full moon,
i hoped, at that very moment it was blessing upon you too, wherever you may be.

. . .

saturday nightfall
the twenty first
vaiśākha

botanical verse n°2

botanical verse  n°2






gathered
from the hillside, outside our home

memory
a very humid morning
weeping milky sap
saanjh by my side, excitedly collecting fallen flora from the ground

. . .

sunday, mid morning
the fifteenth
vaiśākha  

a prayer. a hope

a prayer . a hope





last night, after saanjh went to bed
and what felt like an endless day of blankness
i sat with myself, after long, in our balcony
as the spring breeze of vaiśākha caressed my weary spirit
my mind resumed to take note of little things around me again.
the sprinkling of fine-dust all over our floor, carried from the windswept hills outside
the glimmer of fluttering fairylights on window frames
the dulcet sound of our swaying ghongroo curtains
the soft waltzing of fallen bougainvillea flowers and pigeon feathers
and a midnight sky full of meditating stars

the night kindly became a prayer
and prāṇa slowly returned into my breath

.

this morning, the prayer turned into hope
saanjh seems to be healing back to her sweet self

. . .

wednesday, evening
the fourth
vaiśākha

ordinary magic-lore

ordinary magic-lore




over the weekend, we were all unwell
especially our little one, tender with high fever
requesting her papa and i to narrate stories all day.
so we took turns and told stories, mostly self-composed,
in-between cleaning, cooking, resting
and eating mulberries, reminiscent of our wild childhood.

now, saanjh is off into a healing sleep beside me
and the clouds are dreaming in the sky.
as i sit down to write, i realize
i'm always retelling the same narrative
of days made of birdchant, starsongs and the nomadic wind
of gathered foliage and fragrant seasons
of silences and our uneventful everydays.

of a life that’s made of ordinary magic-lore
like the ageless unfolding of sunrises and sunsets
their recital lingers in me
and i'm content to be living this life
sometimes preserving their notes, here
and other times letting them remain unsung in my heart.

it's a beautiful place to be.

. . .

monday, mid morning
the seventeenth
vaiśākha

botanical verses N°1

botanical verse  n°1





gathered
from our first ride into the hills, outside our home

memory
chirping sparrows
slender thorny branches
powdery yellow flower-dust


. . .

sunday, mid morning
the seventeenth
chaitra

everydays and new rituals

everydays and new rituals





spring clouds are gathering in the sky, with the oath of rain
a lone crow is cawing outside our window
and the afternoon is heavy with construction noise from nearby.
still, a sense of quiet pervades.

i’m pausing from work to sit with it.

it feels like spring in our life too,
as we grow roots in this new house and new city.
slowly, we’re returning to our everyday
and our new house is benignly becoming us,
quilting with our movements and sounds.

over the weekend, we rode into the road outside our premise
that passes through the hills
with wild grass lining the hillside, in abundance
and so much botanical poetry waiting to be felt.
we brought home a few verses
as souvenir of our inaugural visit
to, perhaps, a new sunday morning ritual.

. . .

wednesday, noontide
the twentieth
chaitra

making. feeling.

making. feeling.






a little apron for our daughter
between sewing curtains.

. . .

tuesday, noontide
the twelfth
chaitra

we're here

we're here




slowly making home.

preluding our story
between its generous breadth
and on waiting walls.

it's been a week
and already our life's a musical
with birds songs rendered from dawn to dusk,
pigeons cooing and shedding feathers in our balcony
and sweeping hillocks outside our windows.

there's also so much that isn't
but we're learning to adapt,
form new rhythms,
seek solace from within and the open skies.

chaitra has come, bringing spring.
thus, a new year begins.

. . .

friday, nightfall
the eighth
chaitra